On Gratitude and Breaking Points
Some of you are aware that the last couple days have been rough ones for me: it was a perfect storm of factors that conspired to upset the applecart, so to speak. People say “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” and it sometimes makes me want to smack them, because maybe what those people don’t realize is that there are things in life that break you. They break something inside you when they happen, and it is a wound that never heals, that never leaves you. So you learn to live with it. But there are times when it gets to be just a bit too much.
This isn’t meant to get depressing.. What I mean by all this is that what I am still learning, four years later, that is probably more important than you might realize, is that it is okay to have days when you are not okay. If you’ve never had an event like this in your life, please count yourself lucky. And if you have, maybe you’ve realized this yourself already and are nodding along…
This is definitely the biggest…meltdown I’ve had since joining Twitter, and was compounded by acute sleep deprivation (like I said - perfect storm). Actually it’s probably the worst I’ve been since My Event happened. But my point is that rambling on Twitter was a huge help for me, so thank you all for putting up with it.
The point, that it’s taken me all of the above to get to is this: I will never be able to accurately encompass with words alone how very much it means to me that there are people who are there for me and willing to just listen. Most of them are not on Twitter or Tumblr and probably will never read this, but it’s something I needed to say.
So to all of you who, even if you don’t know it, did something to help me get back to my stable equilibrium: from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
